Thursday, January 05, 2006

Boy Meets Girl

Yes, I promised I would write everyday.

Yes, it was one of my resolutions for the new year.

Yes, I did say that, no matter what, I'd concentrate on my dreams and do all the things I said I'd do.

Yes, I remember all of this and more.

Total bollocks. Total bollocks I say.

Damnation, Fate threw me a curve ball yet again.

This time, Hamster got himself distracted and, at that crucial moment, stared at the yawning maw of Fate and got sucked in like a fat kid swallowing a jawbreaker.

This is what happened...

It was one of those typical days, a day where I work my butt off and keep mouthing profanities at the inanities of the world when I chance upon a message in my friendster. It was a girl I met during one of friend's night outs. Hmmm, interesting I thought. Why not? And then proceeded to type in a bantering reply.

A week later, we got into texting the every afternoon, discussing various aspects and differences of the human myth that is life. Two weeks after, we debated and shared stuff through phone calls, ranging between the wee hours of midnight up to the better half of the morning. Three weeks, I scrounged enough cohones to ask if I can court her, ever the polite but nervous geek that I am. To my surprise ( and somewhat horror ) she accepted.

After a little over a month, in this day, we became, inevitably and irrevocably, a couple.

Wow.

I never thought that I'd fall in love again. Sure I rant and rave about this certain girl or that, but that has usually been speculation and what-ifs. Coming back from China, I thought I'd concentrate on my family's business, just going through the motions, trying to eek out a social life out of my busy schedule. Apparently, Lady Destiny has something else in store for me, something wonderful and exciting.

They say that you'll never forget your first love, that you'll see her shadow in the dusty corners of your memory, sometimes scratching the certain part of your brain in remembrance. That is true. They also say that love is better the second time around. And that is also undoubtably true.

And you know what, I can't wait. I mean I can't wait for tommorow, next week, next year, next decade. I can't wait because I'm going to spend those days with her, and things that we'll experience together, and the anticipation of the things to come. And yes, I know we'll fight, but that's ok, because that's what being in a relationship is about. You continue to learn more about the person that you love and, through stumbles and falls, eventually get to that comfortable area of give and take.

Hay.

I'm in cloud nine....no make that ten, twenty, a hundred even!

I guess I can't express how unbelievably happy I am. It usually the case of a person whose thoughts are centered on one person, the one person who can make your heart beat faster just by a single touch. That person that you think about, dream about and even unconciously mouth phrases to her even when she isn't around.

Yup, I'm pretty much in love.

So, to this girl, I'm just gonna say...

"I love you, Ronstadt Fernandez. No other poetic phrases or elaborate stanzas can ever beat that trio of simple words that expresses what's inside my heart, cuz there's no embellishment needed in trying to say what I want to say. I love you plainly and simply, in the sense that my love for you is pure and raw and innocent. You make my days brighter, you're the reason why I smile unconciously like a drunken idiot. And for that, nothing on earth can compel me to leave you, it's like having a piece of your soul shredded off excrutiatingly slow. I won't make any wishes or hopes; I know that whatever happens, wherever our path takes us, we'll still be there for each other, cheering each other on forward. I never met anyone who can complement my weirdness and idiocrasynies, a representative of the other species who can tune in and jive to my radio, even talk intelligently about it. It's like we were meant for each other, like two halves of beautiful tapestry. I guess all I'm trying to say is that I love you, nothing more, nothing less, and for us to be together, a dream come true. Thank you for the chance to share your life with me. I love you."

State of Mind: Deliriously Happy!
Song of the day: Red White Blue by Mayonnaise
Now reading: Wizard's Gambit by David Eddings
Looking forward to: Tommorow and the days beyond

2 Comments:

Anonymous Anonymous said...

whatever happened to all the doubts i had before this day? pouf! (a happy one at that) suddenly, corp law became interesting and easy ha ha ha... love yah my hamster!!! let's try to make a conscious choice everyday and every single moment from now, on to make this work for us ok? life never came with guarantees, especially in taking a chance at love...again...but i'll bet there will be lots of kisses coming your way...soon he he he mwah!!!!

12:41 PM, January 07, 2006  
Blogger Kyuzo said...

Ha! Talk about snapping out of boredom! I didn't know you had a blog until now. Keep in touch Dude!

3:53 PM, January 11, 2006  

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